renee

Sun, 02 Aug 2009 19:33:35 GMT

i don't feel good about myself.
i'm not happy.

Thu, 30 Apr 2009 23:18:59 GMT

can just say..............

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 20:50:58 GMT

the grass feels so good on my bare feet,
it's been too long!!

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 05:15:18 GMT

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 02:57:35 GMT

tomorrow is mikayla's birthday,
i got her some nice gifts and i'm making her a card.

this weekend will consist of both my friends and my family,
and i think it will be a nice balance.

i failed my history exam,
i really need to start picking up pace.
i'm so bad at testing.
i'm slacking so bad right now and i know it, which is really stupid because i'm luckier than anyone. i'd be stupid to just throw that away. i've already started starting over with my psychology and english class, i've been consistent with math, and now i need to get going on history. i don't know where i started being so careless, but it's stopping.
my exam grades are as follows:
english - C (78)
psych - C (i don't know)
history - F (60)

i have to tell my dad, i hate disappointing him.

i hate disappointing myself.

i'm disappointing myself.

my cat just puked, bye

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 02:12:27 GMT

this year is looking nice so far,
i'm excited for summer.

Mon, 06 Apr 2009 03:05:21 GMT

if you see this at job lot someday,
please get this for me.
they ran out!

by the way, last night was just wonderful -
every single little thing.

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 16:44:35 GMT

i think tonight will be nice.

cambridge, MA's papercut zine library - junior's cd release show w/ carlton, hayworth, and rivalries
(and looking for alaska...)

go!

Thu, 02 Apr 2009 05:55:40 GMT

i don't know you anymore.

Tue, 31 Mar 2009 04:57:55 GMT

i woke up late today,
and this whole day ended up being the laziest ever.

my grandma is in the hospital, she fell and has a collapsed lung. she's on watch and being kept on oxygen, but her nurse said she should be out in a little less than a week. i'm so glad she's okay. my uncle was in the hospital just two weeks ago, so i hope this is the last thing to happen for a while.
hospitals give me anxiety, i hate them so much.

i haven't felt very well today, and i keep feeling nauseas. aye, aye, aye.

not much good news today.

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 05:13:11 GMT

WHERE IS MY MIND?

i'm tired of crying about everything.

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 23:09:48 GMT

i love stepping on rusty nails.
three of them...

we worked on the new house all day today, it looks like ladd school right now.
i can't wait to get walls up and floors and ceilings innn.
and when we paint! i think i decided on a mustard-y color.
i like this idea, sort of. the frames and stuff i mean. i want a low bed and lots of pictures everywhere.

i need to start taking more pictures of where i go, the things i do, the poeple i'm with (especially). except i always feel creepy whipping out a camera hah.

veggie dinner tonight at joel's with mikayla and evin.
dinner specially prepared by no other than mikayla and joel.
sw333333t.

i should bring my camera!

but i won't, haha.

new junior is so good.

bye,

Sat, 28 Mar 2009 04:23:33 GMT

i am an emotional trainwreck, and i hate it.

tonight/today ended up being really fun, though.

Thu, 26 Mar 2009 14:56:44 GMT

i love you, man was so cute! paul rudd is such a babe, seriously.
WHAT AM I GOING TO DO WHEN I GET MARRIED. I have like, two girl-friends.
Oh well, traditional is dumb anyways, I'll have my bros stand with me, it'll be cool.

I am in such a weird mood. My second class this morning was cancelled, and I'm home eating oatmeal, raisin toast, and tea. My tea is not as good as Aaron's tea:(

I'm starting my diet today, those things are healthy, right? I hope so, hahah.
I want a cute bathingsuit this year!

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 21:51:39 GMT

i woke up late this morning,
had to pee so bad but my mom was hogging the bathroom,
got pulled over by a huge trooper SUV legit 50 feet from my house for a brake light i've had out since i've had my car (it works sometimes, just not this morning, apparently...)
$85 ticket.
spilled coffee all over myself,
late for work,
i think i saw a dead person,
no hanging out with kelly,
i guess no evin,

best day EVA,

i cant wait for the REAL spring;
beach, Newport, Ladd, Six Flags

why am i listening to nevershoutnever...?

bye

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 19:13:48 GMT

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii i just want to be includedddd.

!

Mon, 23 Mar 2009 03:08:49 GMT

i feel so run-down.

not ready for school tomorrow morning (or work).

today was good. i like the people i've been surrounding myself with lately, even though i wouldn't necessarily (why can't i spell/talk today?) call them my friends (yet?)

shane doesn't talk to me as much anymore, i suppose he has a small handful of friends now that i guess don't like or want to talk to me. it's fine, i guess. it's taking a lot of getting used to, though. he's happy, so that's all that matters.

exhausted.

Sat, 21 Mar 2009 05:22:30 GMT

Today was the worst day/a good day.
I woke up early, which made my day seem extremely long, but nice. I took a shower, opened all the windows in my house, got dressed, an picked up Evin. We were going to go out to breakfast, but instead i made him breakfast. I wanted to go to Purgatory Chasm really bad over my vacation and we were supposed to go today, but we didn't and i'm really upset about it. Anyways, I started getting really ridiculously crampy and nauseas to the point where i was sitting o nthe floor next to my toilet almost crying. It was so bad. With three tylenols, it went away, but it was liek the worst pain/sickness ever. It still hurts a little bit.
So then I took Evin home and went hoem for a little. My stepmom made tacos for dinner and I spent some time with my family. My brothers fish isn't doing too well, and he's really upset about it, it's so heartbreaking.
Then I went to Evin's and him, Devin, Seth, Pat, Taylor, Zakk, and Junior were there skating on the sweet new half-pipe that Evin, Devin, and Seth built in Evin's yard. It's pretty legitimate, it came out a lot better than I had expected. It was a lot of fun though, actually. Just to be outside and have a nice time laughing without my fingers turning purple and my nose getting all red.
Thennnnn Evin, Pat, and I went to Mikaylas to watch Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith with her and Joel. HONESTLY, the longest movie ever. I never get them anymore, but they're good to watch.

I've been in such an on/off terrible mood today though, I apologize for snapping at evin or anyone else i might have snapped at.

sleepover tomorrow?
NOT vanna, please.
well, i might end up going.

ah,

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 04:14:33 GMT

Fri, 20 Mar 2009 03:03:57 GMT

my legs are really cold.

tonight was nice.

i really want to go to purgatory chasm tomorrw, but no one wants to go haha.

my window will be open when i sleep tonight!

p.s. i'm kind of jealous of you :/

p.s. (again) my mom needs to quit buying family sized boxes of count chocula.

Thu, 19 Mar 2009 00:33:58 GMT

wow,

you don't tell me anything anymore.
oh, and thanks for ditching me, i love when you do that.

love ya tons, best friend.

i can fully and completely trust two people, and my dad.

p.s.

Wed, 18 Mar 2009 01:28:50 GMT

sarah kappelle is lovellllly.

thursday and friday i'm taking out of work to do something fun while i'm out of school. thursday i may do something with shane or mikayla, or maybe go to boston? i'm not sure. friday, i really want to go to purgatory chasm. i just want to laugh alot.

i got my new bedspread in the mail today!
i wanted to save it for the move, but i was too excited and i'm laying on it now hahah.

once i get my gold AA hotshorts, i'll officially be in Gila.
legit/scared.

goodnight!

Mon, 16 Mar 2009 04:12:21 GMT

i just drew something for the first time in forever, and i love the way it came out.
i'm scared to paint it! i hate when this happensss haha.

maybe i'll share when it's done, but probably not!

today was such a legit day. the weather was BEAUTIFUL, perfect dress weather.
evin and i went out to dinner with my family for my dad's birthday (which is actually tuesday), and it was really nice. the food was so good, we went to one of those crazy asian restaurants where they cook on your table, ahh.

not pumped for work tomorrow.
i might take thursday and friday off.

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 06:53:10 GMT

Sun, 15 Mar 2009 04:25:57 GMT

this song made me feel invincible when i was fourteen.
it's funny how some things never, ever change.